Eileen (Fairbrother) Schuh
(sometimes writing as Kastle Harbour)
Who am I? 
Am I the young girl growing up on a small farm near Tofield, Alberta? Playing with kittens in the hayloft? Catching frogs and dragonflies? Making snow angels? Puddling in the creek in the springtime? A child growing to adolescence bereft of a TV, running water, telephone, and electricity? The child, who at fifteen gets her first story published in Wee Wisdom Magazine?
Who am I? Am I the young adult who moves to Edmonton, learns of ids and egos, Skinner’s box, psychotropics, and the criminal mind? Who becomes a psychiatric nurse? Who gets her first article published in Unity Magazine?
Who am I? Am I the adult who achieves a Journalism Diploma from Grant MacEwan College and becomes a reporter/photographer for the Viking News?
Who am I? Am I the woman-in-love who gives up her career to marry, moves to Strathcona County, and has three babies in three years?
Am I the Office Administrator for the family-owned company, who relocates with the business to St. Paul, Alberta?
Am I the Reporter who becomes the Editor for the St. Paul newspaper, The LakeLander?
Am I a volunteer with the RCMP, the St. Paul Curling Club, and Ducks Unlimited?
Am I this woman, cradling her first grandchild in her arms in a mansion on a hill, the sound of the fountain in the Atrium taking me back to those creek-puddling days of long ago? Am I the woman who does Yoga, is learning to cross-country ski? Is trying to find a publisher for her novels?
Yeah, I am all of that.
I stroke the baby’s palm and he curls his fingers tightly around mine. “Peter,” I whisper. “I know who I am, but what will I become?”